Week 45, 2024. A little public weekly note. I wish I could consistently post a public diary every day, but oh boy, the amount of hassle that would be. So yeah, I just post whenever I feel like it and whenever I can bother, unlike my private notes, which are on a whole different level. Basically, I’ve got two kinds of diaries: private and public.
The private one? Been grinding on that again this November. Been doing this whole “writing my thoughts down” routine since 2020s, so at this point, it’s just second nature.
The public stuff, though? Tried blogging once, but it never really to stick around long-term. Right now, I’m working on this weird little “self-publishing” system. Not quite social media, not exactly a blog either, but more like a digital garden.
Anyway, back to this week… it’s been pretty solid. I’m aiming for a kind of “grindmaxxing” phase. From November 1st to the 10th, I ran every single day, morning runs, midday in the blazing heat, even rain runs, didn’t skip once. And on November 10th, I took on a solo marathon, 45 km with 1000 meters elevation. Got rained on, from daylight into dark nighttime. No pictures, no social media clout content, it was all about seeing just how tough my determination could be.
This was my second solo marathon of the year, first one was on March 9th, 2024. That one was brutal. 45 km in five hours through storms, 1000+ meters elevation, classic reckless decision, but hey, at least I survived.
Aside from the running grind, I’ve also been trying to draw consistently this week, even if it’s just doodles and sketches. Art’s been a thing since I was a kid, so I’m not about to let that part of me go completely. Guess it’s a small step toward keeping that “inner child” alive, but we’ll see where it leads.
And not everything this week was sunshine, obviously. There were some pretty down moods, but hey, that’s just a mood, right? Depression and loneliness? They’re like random pop-ups, but they don’t stick around forever. A mix of training, routine, some willpower, and system, I pull myself back up. Be like a phoenix, even if you’re ashes sometime, you still can rise up somehow.
So that’s week 45, ending on November 10th, which is Hero’s Day here in Indonesia. No need to aim for some overhyped hero status. Just be a hero for yourself, that’s enough to save and secure the future.
It reminds me of something I wrote a year ago, on the same day. Time feels like a blink of an eye.